促进华人基督徒在心理、关系、品格与属灵上全人健康，活出基督完全的生命，成圣的路上，在爱中互相建立。

To see Chinese Christians flourishing in psychological, relational, and spiritual health, living out Christlike wholeness, and building one another up in love.

 ------马太福音5: ⁴⁸ 所以你们要完全，像你们的天父完全一样。

Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect.

我们曾是一群年少时就全然献上自己的华人基督徒。爱学习、肯努力，也满怀热忱与委身，投身在各样的服事中。

我们相信自己是在忠心跟随主——而且，常常也被他人这样肯定。然而，在神带领我们各自走过不同的人生旅程时，祂渐渐向我们显明一个令人心痛的事实：

我们的生活和信仰脱节了，我们离我们所信的神很远。

我们私下的生活，是这样一幅图景——对配偶急躁、不肯饶恕；不自觉地想控制孩子的成长，若不听话就发怒；即使在教会里，很在意地位与自己的荣耀，听到负面的意见或者不被重视，就非常失落和沮丧；论断自己不喜欢的人；努力隐藏和压抑对金钱与安全感的渴望，始终不愿正视内心真正翻涌的污秽，尽量避免提起，以为这才叫“舍己”。

作为服事者，面对破碎心灵，心中的爱与怜悯悄悄流失了。传福音渐渐变成一项任务；牧养有时更像是维持生计的工作，而不再是出于爱与呼召。认罪成了一种形式；祷告变成例行公事。神学和事工不能掩盖心灵里的极度枯干，在不知不觉中，我们不仅停止了成长，而且慢慢失去了爱的能力。

我们痛苦地意识到：一个人即便是优秀的属灵领袖，也可能在与神的关系上渐行渐远。能讲道并不等于“属灵”。人的情绪情感在与神建立关系时不容忽视。属灵操练时，可能内心的嫉妒、冲突和破碎并没有处理。我们的情绪、品格与人际关系，是真实的属灵状况的写照。人是软弱的，我们常常因着缺乏属天的滋润而灵性枯干，活在失控情绪和破碎的关系之中。而仇敌的试探和挑衅也是真实存在的——微妙、隐藏且极有力量。

We were once a group of Chinese Christians who had fully dedicated ourselves to God at a young age.We loved learning, loved working hard, and poured ourselves into different ministries with zeal and commitment. We believed we were being faithful—and we were often affirmed by others.Yet as God led each of us through our own life journeys, He gradually revealed a painful truth to us:something was not right in the way we were living out our faith.

We knew Scripture well and were praised for our service.

But in private life, another reality emerged. We became impatient and unforgiving with our spouses.We were controlling in our children’s lives.We were still preoccupied with position and recognition.We judged those we disliked.We tried hard to suppress desires for money and worldly security, yet we were unwilling to face what was truly stirring in our hearts.

As ministers, we saw broken people—but our love and compassion had quietly diminished.Evangelism began to feel like a task.Pastoral ministry sometimes became a way to survive rather than a calling of love.Confession turned into a formality.Prayer became a routine.We had knowledge, but we lacked the power to truly repent.And slowly, we lost the capacity to love.

We came to a painful realisation: a person can remain a visible leader even while growing distant from God. Being able to preach does not mean spiritual health. Emotions deeply connect with one’s relationship with God. Outward spirituality can coexist with inner jealousy, conflict, and fragmentation. Our emotional lives and relationships were inseparable from our true spiritual condition. In our human weakness, we often lived under the control of unchecked emotions.And the enemy’s temptations and provocations were real—subtle, hidden, and powerful.

我们需要祷告！

2021年，圣灵将我们中的一些人聚在一起，开始在网上聚会祷告。我们从心底向慈爱的天父发声呼求：

天父，不要让我们失去起初对你的爱，

求你在我们里面修复那真实、充满活力的与你的关系。

教导我们如何在祢的安息中来服事祢，教会我们如何信靠祢。

不要让我们以自己的十字架自夸，只以基督的十字架为夸耀。

赐给我们真正的谦卑——而不是那种自以为义，却在不知不觉中偏离，走向法利赛人之路的虚假的信心！

We Need To Pray！

In 2021, the Holy Spirit drew some of us together, and we began meeting online in prayer. From the depths of our hearts, we lifted our voices to our loving Father:

Father, do not let us lose our first love.Restore in us a living, vibrant relationship with You.Teach us to serve from the place of Your rest.Do not let us boast in our own crosses, but only in the cross of Christ.Grant us true humility—not the false confidence that thinks we stand firm, yet quietly drifts toward the ways of the Pharisees.

神是垂听祷告的神，当愿意亲近祂，祂就近亲我们。祂深知祂儿女内心最深的需要，就以祂的良善和恩典回应祂所爱的。祂从生命最根基的地方开始动工。我们一同流泪，悔改，彼此分享生命故事，在学习如何将自己——以及所处的环境——交托给神的过程中彼此扶持，在各样挑战中，尤其是情绪、关系中，操练忍耐、信靠，并经历生命的更新与转化。

在这一段共同学习的旅程中——包括在拜欧拉大学（Biola University）修读整合证书课程（以 Mark McMinn 和 Clark Campbell 所著的 《整合心理治疗》 为核心教材）、在 AIFC 的学习——再加上持续的反思，以及圣灵温柔的光照，神教导我们去留意自己的情绪、行为、言语、关系，将其视为洞察内心真实状态的窗口，也是转向神、更深悔改、依靠宝血和仰望神的信号。

我们学习处理源自内心深处的问题，将重担卸在神面前，并认识罪那复杂而隐蔽的运作机制——不是为了自我定罪，而是借着祂的恩典真实悔改。同时，我们也开始更加诚实地面对人的软弱，学习更深地倚靠神，并对人的软弱有更多的怜悯与接纳。

在这一路上，我们学习如何回到神面前，如何在神面前深刻的悔改；也学习不再出于勉强、热心、自义或论断来服事，而是在祂所赐的安息中服事。

我们逐渐明白一个真理：

在生命的各个层面活出基督的样式（基督徒全人的健康）乃是神能力与恩典的作为。

作为人，我们需要智慧和具体的路径，有意识地去觉察那些透过情绪、关系、思想、行为与意志浮现出来的真实需要和问题，并学习单单仰望祂的怜悯与恩典，从而顺服真理，更新心思意念和行事为人，从里到外效法基督，而不仅仅效法祂如何做事工。

举例来说，当一位基督徒在新冠疫情期间经历极深的痛苦时，过去的我们很容易简单地说：“你只要祷告就好了，你缺乏信心。”但现在，我们意识到在表层之下，那个人可能正背负着难以承受的重担——例如对年幼孩子过度而无力承受的担忧，信心的缺乏，对于死亡和永恒的模糊认知等等——以至于心力枯竭，完全没有力量转向神。他确实需要转向神，也确实需要信心，但从痛苦走向信靠，还有很长的路，需要面对和越过很多隐藏着的拦阻。

在这里，我们清楚看见一种张力：“知道自己应该信靠耶稣，却无力信靠，成圣的路上走得很艰难。”

弥合这道鸿沟，需要真实的悔改，以及从神而来的能力和智慧，需要知识和见识、属灵的光照、充满爱的陪伴、忍耐等候——使人不停留在经历耶稣的救赎而“称义”，更在成圣的路上，不断悔改，不断信靠，不断被更新，成为圣洁，像耶稣。

God is a God who hears prayer. When we draw near to Him, He draws near to us. He knows the deepest needs of His children, and He responds to those He loves with His goodness and grace. He begins His work at the very foundations of our lives. We wept together, shared our life stories, and supported one another as we learned to surrender ourselves—and our circumstances—to God. In the midst of many challenges, especially within our emotional lives and relationships, we learned patience and trust, and experienced deep transformation and renewal.

Through this shared journey of learning—including the Integrated Certificate program at Biola University (with Integrative Psychotherapy by Mark McMinn and Clark Campbell as a core text), our training with AIFC—together with ongoing reflection and the gentle illumination of the Holy Spirit, God taught us to pay attention to our emotions, behaviors, words, and relationships. These became windows into the true condition of our hearts, and also signals calling us to turn back to God—to deeper repentance, renewed dependence on the blood of Christ, and a more wholehearted gaze toward Him.

We learned to engage the issues rooted in the innermost places of our lives, to lay our burdens before God, and to recognize the complex and often hidden dynamics of sin—not for self-condemnation, but for genuine repentance by His grace. At the same time, we began to face human weakness more honestly, learning to rely more deeply on God and to grow in compassion, acceptance, and mercy toward the weakness of others.

Along this path, we learned what it means to repent deeply before God, rather than superficially; and to serve not out of striving, zeal, self-righteousness, or judgment, but from the rest that God Himself gives.

Gradually, we came to understand this truth:

To live in Christlikeness across every dimension of life—holistic wholeness—is the work of God’s power and grace.

Yet as human beings, we also need wisdom and concrete pathways to recognize the real needs and struggles that surface through our emotions, relationships, thoughts, behaviors, and wills—and to be transformed within them intentionally. We must learn to look wholly to His mercy and grace, so that we may submit to the truth, be renewed in our minds, and live transformed lives—being conformed to Christ from the inside out, rather than merely imitating how He carried out ministry.

For example, when a Christian experiences profound distress during the COVID pandemic, many caregivers may instinctively say, “You just need to pray.” Yet beneath the surface, that person may be carrying an unbearable burden—such as overwhelming concern for young children, a fragile faith, or an unclear understanding of death and eternity. These unseen weights can leave a person emotionally exhausted, with no strength left to turn toward God. Here we clearly see the tension: knowing that we should trust Jesus, yet feeling utterly unable to trust Him.

Bridging this gap requires wisdom, loving accompaniment, patience, spiritual illumination, genuine repentance, and empowerment from God—so that a person not only experiences justification through Christ’s redemption, but continues on the path of sanctification: repenting again and again, trusting again and again, being renewed again and again, and growing into holiness—becoming more and more like Jesus.

2023 年，惊闻我们中的一位失去了患有抑郁的独生子后，神带领Lily 开始在悉尼大学的华人国际学生事工（MBS）中担任志愿者帮助心灵有困扰的年轻人。这也使事工的方向逐渐清晰——以心灵辅导关怀作为途径，在人心最深的痛苦中给予安慰，并在极深的苦难之处见证神的作为；

随着时间的推移，我们更深意识到一个沉重的现实：教会中，尤其是华人教会，许多基督徒真心爱主，却活在深深的内在耗竭之中——正如我们曾经一样。很多人学习舍己、放下，却无法、无力、甚至完全意识不到 该如何卸下重担，到耶稣这里来。教义没有问题，但信仰就是无法与生命生活融合。

真正能够被陪伴，放下心灵重担的人并不多，因为许多牧者和事工同工自己也在极度疲惫、软弱的状态中服事。

教会通常重视事工和果效，重视读经祷告，但缺少对于门徒是否有健康整全的生命状态予以关注，缺少对内心深刻的认识与耕耘，也缺少合适的门徒去耕耘。同时在教会内部不容易敞开心扉也是现实的问题。

我们持续地向祂呼求，求祂指引我们的道路。

尽管我们中的大多数人已经进入人生的下半场，神却奇妙地呼召我们进入一个新的战场——一个全新的开始，需要我们一生忠心的呼召----健康门徒（中文）事工在2025年7月1日应运而生。

In 2023, after hearing that one among us had lost her only child to depression, God led Lily to begin serving as a volunteer with the Chinese International Student Ministry (MBS) at the University of Sydney, supporting young people who were struggling emotionally. Through this journey, the direction of the ministry gradually became clear—to use inner and emotional care as a pathway, to offer comfort in the deepest pain of the human heart, and to witness God’s work in places of profound suffering.

As time went on, we became more deeply aware of a sobering reality: within the church—especially within Chinese churches—many Christians genuinely love the Lord, yet live in deep inner exhaustion, just as we once did. Few are truly accompanied or able to lay down their inner burdens, because many pastors and ministry workers themselves are serving while extremely fatigued and weakened. Churches often place great emphasis on ministry and outcomes, and on Bible reading and prayer, yet pay limited attention to whether disciples are living with a healthy and integrated life. There is a lack of deep awareness and cultivation of the inner life, a lack of equipped disciples to do this work, and, realistically, it is often difficult to open one’s heart within the church community.

We continued to cry out to Him, asking Him to guide our path.

Although most of us had already entered the second half of life, God miraculously called us into a new battlefield—a fresh beginning, a lifelong calling that requires faithfulness. Thus, Healthy Disciples (Chinese) Ministry came into being on July 1, 2025.

在事工的开始，神借着约翰福音 6:9–12，教导我们事工当有的样式：回到孩童般的信靠，将我们所有的“五饼二鱼”都交在祂手中，让祂去祝福多人。

借着马太福音 17:27，祂教导我们在祂的供应中安息。

借着以赛亚书 53:2，祂提醒我们，永远不要因为外表的平凡而退缩，因为祂要成就祂自己的旨意。

Through John 6:9–12, God taught us how He desires His work to be done: to return to childlike trust, to place even the little we have into His hands, and to let Him multiply and bless it.

Through Matthew 17:27, He taught us to rest fully in His provision.

Through Isaiah 53:2, He reminded us not to shrink back simply because we may lack outward impressiveness.

是的，我们仍在被更新、被塑造的旅途中前行。但我们知道，祂的旨意必然成就。

Yes, we are still journeying forward, being renewed and shaped. We know with confidence that His will shall surely be fulfilled.

-------诗篇105:7 在他们以先打发一个人去，约瑟被卖为奴仆¹⁸ 人用脚镣伤他的脚，他被铁链捆拘。¹⁹ 耶和华的话试炼他，直等到他所说的应验了。and he sent a man before them— Joseph, sold as a slave.¹⁸ They bruised his feet with shackles, his neck was put in irons,¹⁹ till what he foretold came to pass, till the word of the Lord proved him true.